Lili Needs To Reboot 1.0

So, I ditch my daily lesson plan to write on here.

When was the last time I write? It's been ages. Well, life's getting more heavier with responsible and of course I getting more lazier. And the struggle to upload your pictures from phone to computer, no joke!

Like school is no joke. To think about I still have 30+ service years. Gimme strength.

I feel like I need to go on a reboot camp just to reboot my strength to teach kids. Maybe I left it somewhere. I. Need. To. Reboot. I need to plan more activities for kids. You know when you're standing in front of the class and the thought of 'I'm a boring teacher' crossed your mind. Not funny. I already find a school in Scotland that wanted to pen pal with my kids. Kudos Lili because I don't want my kids to be like me. I've got no problem in writing but believe me when it's speaking it feels as if my mind went for sightseeing. Tak kelakar okay. English teacher but scared of speaking English, who are you?

School Goes On and On...

Last August 15 marked my one year of being a teacher. Feeling? Guhhhddd give me strength to endure all the future days of teaching. So here are some notes for yourself Lili:

1. Got my first chicken pox at 25 (to be exact 3 weeks before UPSR, pity my kids but that 2 weeks of holiday though!)

2. Checked off a few items in my bucket list (phone, travel, makeup...)

3. Fight the exam battle with my stepkids.

4. Got new friends, I mean school teachers haha.

5. Introduced a guy to my parents (yes gelak banyak-banyak sikit please).

It's pretty obvious the lists are such a bore, aight? But whatevs I feel cool okay. It's almost the end of the year means hello meetings, bengkel, taklimat and programs that I feel ridiculously unnecessary but not all.

For example, I just got back from bengkel Linus 2.0 though I don't teach Level 1 kiddos but bila pergi bengkel macam tu rasa macam wow bestnya ajar small kids. Not that I'm complaining sebab dah biasa ajar budak besar. Sometimes jealous jugak sebab I feel 'No time for playing, you need to get ready for your UPSR' but learning should be fun.

Bila nak jadi cikgu fun ni Lili. Plus, having colleagues who are about the same age as me really help me to enjoy.

See, balik sekolah pun still rant pasal kerja. Ranting does help even though kadang-kadang rasa annoyed sebab if you keep it to yourself boleh tension okay.

p/s: Tayar kereta pancit haritu. Dua dah tukar, dua lagi bila?

Dear Me

They have taken their oaths as a cover, so they averted [people] from the way of Allah . Indeed, it was evil that they were doing.

That is because they believed, and then they disbelieved; so their hearts were sealed over, and they do not understand.

p/s: Make fool of yourself

Eid 2017

Existence without no purposes

Questions are left with no answers

Sins without repentance

Over and over again.

Now tell me where you want to run

Left or right 

...because in the end

Hakuna matata, que sera sera.

p/s: Selamat Hari Raya :) Kenapa anak murid aku ni guna whatsapp group parents tanya pasal kerja sekolah. Sabaq Lili. 

Life Update

They say you'll see rainbow after rain

I say it's enough with the clouds

They say good things must come to an end

I say I'll put you in a photograph then

They say you'll meet wrong guy along the way

I say I'm glad to be in his life

Hello February

How are you? 

It was hard with you the last time.

Another months have come

Another person has peek through

Another heart has filled with

Another joy has been shared finally

Some friends are struggling

But with them are still the same.

p/s: Life Update :)

12 Years Later...

If it's not because of Aida, I wouldn't be there for Tini's wedding. Trust me. Anything about my primary school friends I would run from it. Why?

So let me tell you a short story.

Once upon a time, there was this girl whose parents are both teachers and she went to their school. She didn't have so many friends. Other kids dislike her because she was short tempered. She liked to pick fights with other kids especially boys. Well, she thought she was cool. The end.

Okay that girl is me. Believe me, going to reunion like today reminds me so much on how horrible I was. Really though. That's why I don't really go to my primary school friends' wedding. Sorry. I feel bad recalling the little girl I was 12 years ago. However, today they made me realized that 'Hey c'mon I'm still a kid kot dulu. Of course I do dumb things!'

Everyone is changing. You don't stay the same. You learn from mistakes and buckle up for the next phase. I'm like, screw you little Farah, screw everything.

p/s: If I could say something to my 12 year old Farah, I would tell her to make more friends, to appreciate them and...never pick fights with anyone I supposed haha :)

August :)

Alhamdulillah. Praise be to Allah.

I finally get posted peeps. Too many rumors. Too much promises. Too many hopes.

As far as I can remember, I finished school around November 2015 (itu kira sekali intern kays). Was called for interview on April 2016. Got my SPP interview result at the end of June.

Tahu tak from November until Ogos ni, berapa banyak kami-kami ni rasa hopeless. Cuba jadi positif kata mereka, tapi bila sampai dah tengah tahun tu berapa positif lagi kau ada. Nevertheless, I'm a happy kid staying at home. And yeah, I didn't work.

But didn't stay at home doing nothing. I kinda improved my cooking skills what. Takdelah level advanced. Perhaps intermediate maybe. Hehe.

I called my mom as soon as I checked my posting results. Silap timing lah time tu ibu kita dalam kelas, the whole class could hear I was shouting + crying excitedly. Haha sorry kids that's how your future teacher will be. Being posted to Negeri Sembilan is truly a blessing. Which school which district? Let's wait this Monday.

p/s: Never been so happy like I'm feeling right now. Alhamdulillah for everything.