A Good Drive

It was a sunny afternoon, on my way to Seremban, when suddenly it crossed my mind.

I enjoy driving.

Preferably alone but companion makes it better sometime when they don't mess up with your playlist. It's about focusing on the endless rocky road, making sure that your passengers are safe and listening to self-pick musics playlist. Never mind the hot blazing sunny day that peek through from the mirror, I never bothered to wear sunscreen anyway. I realize driving gives me some peace you can't even find while sitting alone in your bedroom.

The history went back in 2013, I got my first car and believe me it was terrifying driving alone. Somehow experience is the best teacher when you drive back home for every weekend. I gotta admit, a lot of things went through my mind when my hands on the wheel. It's the only time I allowed myself to think about them. I remembered when I had rough times in my life, I would cry while driving and believe me it ain't easy driving while crying.

Maybe I should go for a road trip?

p/s: Nothing hurts than whiteheads around your face! Gahhhhh.

Book: Me Before You

 Yes, I read ebook because I can't afford another book shopping!

“Live boldly. Push yourself. Don't settle.”

Indeed, I'm in book marathon. The next book I decided on was Me Before You by Jojo Moyes.

[Spoiler Alert]
I first watched the trailer. Yes, it's not a new book, published back in 2012. And yes, it's now turned into a movie. Starring by Sam Claflin and Emilia Clarke.

Watched the trailer. Okay, it seemed like a sad romance movie.
Read the book halfway. This is hilarious and sad at the same time, huh.
Re-watched the trailer. Teary-eyed.
Finish the book. Crying and sobbing myself, WTH.

Me Before You is about Will Traynor who seem to me like a guy who believes that life should be about doing a lot of things, not just accepting it. You have to change things. That's what I interpreted from his characters. Then, he was in accident, became quadriplegic where everything below his chest were paralyzed. Yes, he can't recover. He gave his parents 6 months until he chose to end his life with his own way by going to Dignitas (assisted dying organisation).

I pretty much relate myself with Louisa Clark. She was a very happy person. Look at the way she dressed herself. Lots of colors. That is how I live my life. I like wearing colorful clothes because I do believe it affects your mood. In some way, attention is what I seek for.

Well, my classmates know me and colors are inseparable.

Lou said she's happy with the way she is at the moment. She's very ordinary. Same goes to me. I hate changes. I just want to go through the same things, maybe a few changes. Despite I want to try and explore more things deep down inside of me, I know, they are difficult for some reasons.

I find myself get comfortable with ordinary things. Where they don't get much attention from others. Guess that is why I divert them to my choice of clothing.

The ending of the book, I would say it was unexpected. I thought Will would change his mind. I really do. Even on the last page, I was hoping there would be some sort of twist. If someone saw me when I read the book towards the ending, they must've thought I was out of my mind. Sobbing. Crying. Runny nose. The story changed my view on people like Will.

p/s: I'm not sure how I can watch the movie without crying. Well, watching it alone!